this is a topic i've thought about a lot. when people find out i have aspergers, or even just hear the word. the assume i don't feel empathy or sympathy. this may be the case for some people, but honestly, i just don't know how to express empathy and sympathy in words and actions.
for example:
when my great nanna passed and my parents told me. i kinda said a really fake "aww". i was devastated, and i wasn't in shock because we'd all been preparing for it for around a year (she had ovarian cancer). i didn't really cry either, i have no idea why.
so, quick post before i go to school.
i have this necklace of saint dymphna, she's the patron saint of those with mental illness (and i seem to have a bit of that). i always take it off at night because it bothers be when i lay down, and in the morning i [usually] put it back on.
there have been a few odd occasions where i've forgotten to put it on. when i have panic or anxiety attacks,
or i feel like i'm about to go into a [psychotic] fit, i'll hold the necklace and pray to her. but when i don't wear the necklace, it's terrible. i feel almost like i'm going to die.
most people i talk to think i'm just obsessive and i'm having another panic attack because i'm not wearing something that i always wear. but i believe it's her and the lord comforting me.
i've been struggling with faith for over a year now, though i haven't stopped fully believing, it sucks. but there are just little things that give me just a little more proof that christ is standing right next to me.
i have this necklace of saint dymphna, she's the patron saint of those with mental illness (and i seem to have a bit of that). i always take it off at night because it bothers be when i lay down, and in the morning i [usually] put it back on.
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| awkward photo of me because i don't [usually] take photos of me! |
there have been a few odd occasions where i've forgotten to put it on. when i have panic or anxiety attacks,
or i feel like i'm about to go into a [psychotic] fit, i'll hold the necklace and pray to her. but when i don't wear the necklace, it's terrible. i feel almost like i'm going to die.
most people i talk to think i'm just obsessive and i'm having another panic attack because i'm not wearing something that i always wear. but i believe it's her and the lord comforting me.
i've been struggling with faith for over a year now, though i haven't stopped fully believing, it sucks. but there are just little things that give me just a little more proof that christ is standing right next to me.
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